I honestly don't know if our marriage will make it through the extremely difficult terrain we have been navigating for so long. I am a positive person and for so long I have held on to the positives but they are dimming. My heart is hurting so much. I know this is a mental health issue - we both have ADHD and with that comes big emotions. Him not owning it in himself adds to the problem. Parenting five nuerodiverse kids is extremely challenging. I am loosing hope in a positive future. The pain I feel from that is crushing. The tears keep coming.
On the other hand, maybe things could be okay. I don't want to give up but it is just so incredibly difficult, I don't know if I can hang on until we get to that point.
