Things feel difficult and overwhelming. There is a lot to learn if I stop and look for it. A few things to note lately:
- Eleanor is having a difficult time lately. She seems very unhappy. She is upset most of the time, pushes back on almost everything, and I think she has anxiety and ADHD. I know 1:1 time would help but struggle to find the time with four other kids. I should probably seek official diagnoses for her and make 1:1 time a priority. Right now our relationship is not great and I don't like that.
- I was diagnosed with ADHD last week. It is such a relief knowing this as so many things in my life make sense now.
- Today was a really rough day on the home front. Big emotions from most in our family and Wendel seemed extra stressed. Sundays are so hard. I think it's Satan's doing and I really don't like it. There is so much opposition on this day. We have felt this way for years, since Oliver was really little.
- I feel so incredibly overwhelmed. I'm trying to stay positive. I'm mostly okay but our house stresses me out. I know I need to declutter and get rid of so . much . stuff but that takes time and I feel like I don't have it. I need to prioritize it but struggle with the motivation.
- I am incredibly blessed, despite these difficulties. For that, I am grateful.
