- Isolation
- Judgement
- Overwhelm
- Constant effort
- Mental fatigue
- Constantly learning
- Seeking to understand
- Insanity (which by definition is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results - in this case, putting my heart and time and energy into understanding my sons and continuing to see them struggle with big emotions, negative self talk, impulsiveness, and focus).
- Can't keep up
- Concern
- Exhaustion
- Misunderstood by many
- Sadness for my boys at times
- Falling asleep sitting up because I'm so drained
- Constantly pouring out my own canteen and sporadically filling it up a little bit
- Needing time to unwind, which is only when everyone is asleep - therefore I am always tired
It also feels like:
- A world of new discoveries with so many things to learn about.
- Appreciation for connection when it happens.
- A sacred, special parenting ("To sacrifice is to make something sacred." - M. Russell Ballard)
- I have a specific purpose to advocate for my children.
- It forces me to prioritize the most important things.
- It brings me closer to my Heavenly Father, as I pray often and rely on Him to give us guidance through this process.
